A few days ago I had a very good day of writing. Not that I accomplished all the much, I think I re-wrote like 3 pages of the epic fantasy novel I'm working on. But where I was in the story and the intersection of character arcs and the greater theme I saw playing out, made it a fun day at the office.
Not everyday of writing is a magical experience. I'd be totally lying if I said that was the case. I say a good 80% of my creative writing falls on the drudgery side of the ledger. Not everything I write is inspired right of the bat. I'd be the first person to admit that I'm not very smart or gifted, rather I get by mostly by tenacity and and inner resolution to be great.
But back 20% side of the ledger, which is FAR more funner to talk about. What got me so jazzed about today's writing, was I started to realize I'm writing a relatively happy story. Now, you may be thing, "E.C., you're a strange dude." But lemme explain myself and give you a little background of where I'm coming from. Over the last few year I have written some very dark stories. "A Heart Built on the Sand" is all about a woman descent to the place where she returns to her job and guns down everyone in sight. I knew that was a dark place. YES, it was inspired by a woman I met in real life in one of my jobs in the 2000s, where I played with the idea of how a corporate company can put the screws to someone so much so that they snap. And then there was "The Commune" and "The Commune II" which features evil aliens, demonic possession, and cloning. More dark place. YET I was sooo dedicated to story I let myself go there, and did my best to maximize the sci-fi horror element.
BUT that's not who I am.
And for a while I was fearful that I had stayed in these dark places too long, and now that's the only kind of story I was capable of writing. I don't know about you, but for me that was a scary proposition. Because again, in my heart of hearts I don't see myself as a dark person, like say Rob Zombie, who EVERYTHING about that guy points to dark.
Okay, so let's get into my breakthrough moment. It was realizing that, yes, I could write a story that had a very strong FRIENDSHIP element to it. Friendship, what a concept, huh? Kinda foreign to a lonely writer like me, YET that that's where I'm at now, and tinkled pink to be here. The kind of friendship I'm eluding too is a Jonathan/David kind of friendship that is described in the bible. We're talking Old Testament here, Holmes: 1Samuel chapters 18-31. You see ol' E.C. DOES have a deep side to him, and he's not afraid to bring in spiritual matters and actually instill that in his writing. To God be the glory!
Friends, creatively I'm at a good place right now. Good for me creatively -- and emotionally. And the cool thing is, I get to be there!
For starters tomorrow, after my family and I have an Easter dinner together I'm off for a three day, self imposed, writer's retreat. I'm actually to a place in the epic fantasy story, where the story begins. Going to stay 3 days in hotel and soak up the town I write about. Next Forks from "Twilight" fame? Hate that comparison, Holmes. I HATE "Twilight" in much the same way I HATE all the "Harry Potter" movies. Why?!? It's the element those two franchises attempt to glamorize to today's youth that really bothers me. "Twilight" glamorizes vampires to teen romance, and "Harry Potter" endorses youth to embrace witchcraft. It's not even that I hate vampires or witchcraft so much, it's that I hate corrupting youth who in the midst of forming their opinions on life to be attracted to elements such as vampires and witchcraft. Are you feeling me? Do you understand what I'm saying? Because it sickens me to think of all those wide-eyed teenagers out there growing into the men and women they will later be letting gross movies like "Twilight" and "Harry Potter" shape their character and world-view. Don't be naive or a dumbass about this, but get where I'm coming from and consider the world view and truths that these two franchises promote and reinforce. Do that, and maybe you'll come to the same conclusion I have:
Hollywood has FAILED our youth.
"Twilight" and "Harry Potter": don't both EVER saying anything nice about either of these two franchise ever to me, either outwardly or inwardly I will roll my eyes at you as what these movies represent makes me wanna vomit.
And yet I use that fuel to fire me up to write my own stories which I hope will one day MINISTER to today's youth and not only entertain them, but steer them in the right direction. And what is the right direction? It is to the Lord, it is for the Lord. It's not rocket science; is what you're advocating pro-Christ or is it anti-Christ?
So I'm going to the town where my epic fantasy novel begins. Hoping to get a lot of work done. Hoping for added inspiration. And I'm looking for a little R & R too. Gunna TRY to go alcohol free on this one too. Want a clear head. Want the Lord to speak to me.
My job is going to hell in hand basket. Things are deteriorating as my company continues to try to cut costs, as one of our chief clients keeps cutting their costs. The result is people are devalued and the working environment and most people's moral has gone to shit. Lots of competition and backbiting; I trust very few people in my department. There is palatable sense of uneasiness in the air where I work. But what am I to do? If I get fired, I get fired. This job is not my God, the Lord is my God. He provides all for me--even the money making jobs I get. I got to keep reminding myself of that fact, as right now I feel the underow of the devil at work.
The things is my seniority date is about to rollover. This may give my company added incentive to let me go; fire me before they're on the hook to payout an addition 120 hours of vacation/sick time. I don't know. But I've also carried over the maximum number of hours I can, 80. In fact right now I'm over that, and with prospect of giving away 3 days of vocation as of May 3rd, I've decided to take those three days, which I did by getting approval for this vocation.
My heart is not in what I do for a living right now, it's not my destiny, my end place; which for many of my coworkers, it is. You can see that reality on their faces. But enough about work, that's just the means which allows me to follow my heart, which is as a writer. Point: E.C. may soon be out of job, but he's not going to let that get him down, but is resolved to keep looking up and moving forward acting in faith that somehow God will get him through.
It is about being there. Not so much physically, as mentally. One of the things I love about writing, and something that I think is a real strength of mine, is my ability to place myself there mentally. To see and feel what my characters see, experience and feel.
Writing is a lot of fun when you try to see to things from an alternative perspective. And it goes so much deeper than "what a character wants". Why do I say that? Because in real life I don't think people are that singular, that driven; they don't always know what they want. Sure, fictional characters need to have some focus, as a the story drives them, but I like to go waaay beyond the simple trigger of wants.
And so as of tomorrow, I'm off! Off to that place I write about. Going to be literally be there Sunday night - Thursday morning. A mini writer's retreat. Going to eat well. Going to keep my mind clear so the Lord can speak to me. Yeah, I may be the one writing this story, but God gets the glory for bringing me to this place where I'm in position to write this story. I don't know if I told you this is or not, but at one point in my life I was on verge of suicide; I had a load hunting riffle and everything. And one night I woke up and was torn between doing the grizzly act or speaking up and getting some help. Obviously I chose the ladder or else I wouldn't be here right now.
The devil has a way of making everything look worse than it actually is. God is so much greater that the devil, greater than the devils I face. And despite all the uncertainty I face, I can't help but admit in the midst of the great sins I've committed, I deserve all this.
Faith. Getting to be there. Fun in writing. All God things. Thank you Jesus I'm still alive to get to overcome what I need to overcome and have fun writing things I love to write. To God be glory!

The hotel room I have has a wi-fi connection, and I'll see what I can do about maybe doing some posts from there. Hopefully after some inspired sessions of writing.

Till we speak again. Yours truly,
E.C. Henry from Bonney Lake, WA